Man, life sucks sometimes. I've been going to school since I moved out because my aunt wants me too complete a college degree. I don't even know what I want to do. :/ But since I'm going to school full time she's paying for my living expense...But I just hate school so much. I'm not very studious at all and I have no idea what I even want to do so I'm just not ..I have no idea what I'm typing because I'm distracted by all the fucking conversation going on behind my head. It's no wonder I never want to do homework because the people I live with freaking smoke pot and play video games all day. None of them have the same scheduled. I'm so bad at living with people. But I can't live by myself because I just get too lonely. :? Look, now I'm not even talking about school. Anyways, my aunt is disappointed in me because basically school is my work. :/ It's my job and I seem to be failing every term. I'm doing way better than I have been and she doesn't realize that. i finally have direction and NOW is the time she starts freaking out? D: F me....Ugh. i'm so stressed out. but I can't even do anything until next term. Man....THISISSOANNYOING.
Everything is. :[
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore, Or what I'm supposed to want.
I need some goals. I can't wait until Chris goes to school in the winter. I really can't wait. maybe It'll motivate me more.
I don't even know what I should be Writing about.
You know those moving pictures that's a picture of you ever day for like a month?
I've always told myself I'm going to do that But I never do. I think I finally will really start.
Wish me luck. :[
Maybe I should Get back into Photography.
Once I get a better camera lens.
I know how you feel. I wish I lived alone sometimes too. I guess I tend to be a 'lone-wolf' naturally but then I'd feel lonely.
ReplyDeleteI totally feel for you about the whole school thing. School IS work. It's a full-time job. What makes it so much harder is when you're surrounded by people and situations that only distract you from getting work done. It's a lose-lose situation it seems like. :/
Maybe studying/going on the computer in your room? Shut yourself away from every one and concentrate on what you need to do.
That's what I'm planning on doing. I'm gonna get wifi so I can lock myself in my room. XD Also, since we plan on moving into a bigger place there will be more room that I can hide in. :]
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