Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Monday, December 19, 2011

Since no one says anything, this is like a diary.

Do you ever think that sometimes you're not meant to be in a relationship with anyone? I'm sure it's crossed some peoples minds before. But, the reason I think this sometimes is not for the idea that people don't like me and I'm not destined to find a lover. It is more like, I tend to find a lot of people that like me. I'm not trying to sound conceded either. Most of my male friends have had feelings for me at one point or another. And a lot of the time I end up being interested in someone because I want to get to know them better, I want to make their life good, I want to help them learn that it's okay to open up and that it's okay for them to be who they are because they're amazing. This ends up being bad because that person I want to get to know ends up liking me. And If I like them and I'm single we might end up dating, then break up and they hate me but have grown. Or, I'm taken and then they like me then realize They don't get a chance so they hate me but have grown. I don't know...I'm too in my head lately. Trying to think about what's best for me at this point.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Some more Questions about Marriage.

When does marriage become a role? Do people honestly fall in love with the same one person for the rest of their lives? Is it a possibility that people will only LOVE that one person? I find it hard to believe that not almost every single marriage is plagued with deception and cheating. Is marriage there for when you finally find that one person you want to be with for the rest of your life, or is marriage there for when you get old enough and lonely enough that you find someone that you can stand being around all the time, accept for their ups and downs, and work well together? I mean, marriage isn't just a love, it's a partnership. Back when there were arranged marriages there was a lower percentage of divorces, not only because it was frowned about and hard to get re married if you had been divorced but because relationships that are meant to work out as a benifit to make more money or keep property under the same name, they learned to love the person they were with...I don't know.
I guess the real question is, is marriage real? I true, honest, loving, and never strayed from relationship.

Long term relationships...they always get to me at some point and I start thinking, is this really for me? Is this what I want?...I've got so much to talk about but I don't have the right person to talk about it with.