Monday, August 22, 2011

Make up. August 20th, & 21st. And maybe a bit of today.

Saturday was my Baby Cousin Emil's 1st birthday. In my Family when it's your first birthday you get a Luau. And there's always a pig. Chris and I got there Early around 10 o' clock to get shit ready. We did the decorations and we also helped with some of the cooking when that whole part started. It was pretty exciting. There were quite a few people there. I'll Share some pictures with you.

^Birthday Cake^

^The baby even gets his own cupcake! Emil's First experience with sugar!^

^Baby Emil With Grandpa!^

^Here's my little brother and Chris Working on Mui Mui Salmon? I forget what it's called. You put frozen salmon that's been salt and chopped up tomatoes and onions pour some ice in it and mush it up with your hands! It was cold but Delicious!

^Me, Mother, Father, Half brother^
(They're divorced)
It was nice to be able to spend time with them all together. :} I barely see my dad anymore and I take what I can get when I can. :}
After the Luau Chris and I went to his place to go swimming with my brother while dad was at work. Then we got pizza together! It was nice. :D

^One of my aunts and some guy sticking their feet in the wadding pool. 92 degrees is way hot!

^And this here is the pig! 80lbs! It was Nummy!^
Kinda..Morbid though. D:

^This is Chris and I Chilling down by the river. I look a little crazy^

That was my Saturday. Didn't do all too much. Was exhausted by the time I finally got home. Then Sunday I didn't really do anything. Went over to my aunts and helped her clean up after the party and did some laundry.

But right now it is 12:26 pm on Monday the 22nd and I'm doing nothing but sitting here. Chris is off to his mom's again for two days so he can work. :{ It makes me really sad when he's gone. It wouldn't be so bad if we could atleast text. But he's at work from 7-5. No texting. :{ And then he goes to bed at 10. .:Sigh:. While I am up to face the dangers of falling asleep alone in the dark.

While he is away I like to be reminded that he really does love me since he isn't there to tell me himself. (He isn't very mushy in public or online) He once told me that this song reminded him of me.
So, I listen to it a lot when he's away.

"Came in together, but you held me..
The process walking right through that door, at the entry.
I can’t seem to remember, the lights were so bright,
And the disco ball blurred in the turn of that night.
But it was perfect, I was told the tux was starched and all.
Grabbed the glass of punch, nervousness, structured by that wall.
Arms folded, myself, I didn’t know yet.
Until you came over, stood by me, you posted.
You put your hand out like I was stranded.
Tried to pull me on that dance floor, I stepped backwards.
See I wasn’t ready yet, but you were my medicine..
Showed me that trust through that love that you held me with.
our backs against the wall as the DJ would spin
The soundtrack had changed as he played that mix…
Our lives flashed in front of us, just a glimpse,
We were together and experience this..

You finally pulled me up, I didn’t want to..
But you filled me up, from the bottom of my heart.
And as we walked through that gymnasium that I’d been watching,
Feeling like my chest would explode from my heartbeat.
To the middle of the floor I almost panicked,
You put your hand out and I fearfully grabbed it.
The most beautiful thing that I’d seen on this planet,
She laughed ‘cause you could tell that I didn’t know how to dance yet..
We started moving and I, didn’t know what I was doing.
You whispered,
“don’t you love music it’s such a gift and I’ll give it to ya, but you gotta use it”
I strayed, you brought me back in..
Trying to sneak a flask outside of that gym.
She said “You don’t need that, look within.”
She hugged me, looked into my eyes, she gave me a kiss
And she said, “I can’t help you, if you don’t let me.
You’re here to live just be, don’t forget me.
The end of this dance you don’t want to regret me, live..
‘Cause tonight you’ll all be set free”

“Last dance!” the Dj yelled.
Looked into her eyes and I could see myself..
Slow motion, frozen, toast to this moment.
Like there is no morning, like there is no morning.
No emotions, you on my shoulder, me lead and you follow,
As we circle the floor like the globe through this infinite mass..
Makes us seem so small,
With you in my hand like the skyline holds the stars.
Not letting go, but I can’t hold on
Fading through my fingertips, watching us fall..
I try to catch you with my arms
I would never take you for granted when I had you in my palms.
To all I ever wanted, please play my song.
And put the record to the needle, don’t ever touch that off switch.
You are perfect, forget that prom dress.
My God, seconds away from God, yes.
Somebody turned the heat on in this party,
Or we’re becoming one because I’m melting into your body..
one being, heart beating, universe falling.
The ground split right between us and that concrete..
Separated my love, I could hear her calling.
Separated, but I could hear her calling.
Goodbye forever, never see you again
Winterball 2012, The End"

<3 I love my baby.

He is the best thing that has Ever happened to me.

I never want to lose him.


  1. I love that song and I love how you talk about Chris. It makes my heart swell seeing people in love- it's a beautiful thing. <3

  2. I talk about him constantly in my head. <3 He's amazing.