Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Feb. 7th, A Small Rant.
For some time when I was a bit younger, I may have been considered whorish, slutty, easy or whatever. I admit I would get to know people and want to be with them, I love the excitement of what's unknown about someone. The way their hand grazes your waist, the way they kiss, the way they act when they first wake up. I love it, it's all so interesting. But I remember back then there were a lot of people that called me a tease, and not in a joking, sensual, funny way. No, they said it in a mean, I'm mad at you because you wont have sex with me Kind of way. Back then that would upset me, I felt like a bad person because I was "Leading" people on even though I didn't want anything more than that. I realize now that it shouldn't fucking matter if you fool around with someone but don't have sex with them. Sex is something special that you should only give to those you care deeply about, or if you both know it's just for fun. Those people were rude and mean and just upset that they couldn't have me that way. And now, I look back and I'm glad I never let them get to me so bad that I actually did have sex with them. I look back and realize, I'm glad I'm a tease, because at least I'm not a whore or easy. Which is what they would have said if I had had sex with them.
That's just a little rant I had to get out. ><