Friday, September 9, 2011

My life lately.
I don't even know what's wrong with me. I haven't felt this way in awhile.
I used to get sad for no reason all the time. Maybe it's not for just no reason maybe I just can't pick the thing that is making me feel that way. but to me it's no reason, what is there to be sad about? Why have I been so emotional lately. I've been crying all the time. It seems like every single little thing that seems sad just sets me off. It's not like I've been outright just bawling my eyes out. It's like a crack in the voice and a few tears down the cheek. I hate it, It's been making me feel so weak. Everything just seems more intense.
Chris says that I might just be feeling..I don't know a word that starts with an S? Means, I'm stuck, I'm not going anywhere.
I mean It might make sense, For the past few years I've been in School, I haven't stopped being in school and I also Don't live downtown so I haven't really been doing anything. Hang out every once in awhile. And I just get too lazy to do anything.

I hate doing things alone.
Like, right now It's taking all of my motivation just to get up and even think about taking a shower. :[

Motivation. I never have any of it. Never. Unless i'm with people and It's like, HEY let's go to the store, 1, 2,go!
But big things...I can't go anywhere. Like college? Please, I hate school.
Maybe it's just my overall negative mood on life.
You live, You die.
Woot, woot, what a party.
I don't know what's wrong with me. :{ I haven't even been eating right.
I barely eat. Nothing seems to taste good, I don't really want anything to drink and up till today I didn't even want to sleep.
I think it's funny that when you see a therapist it's always like, oh we're gonna talk on this date, not when you really need to talk. You need an on call therapist.
I miss mine. :{

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