Feb. 10, 2012

And here begins another day, today is Friday. It's only 12:30 and I feel like I'm ready for it to be 7:30 already. My boyfriend doesn't go to work until two and then get's off work at 7:30. Man, I am going to be so bored today! Of course, I woke up at 9:30am, that's earlier than normal lately. ;P

I had an appointment with my school Career Counselor at ten. We went and talked about the five top Careers I had chosen to look more into. We talked about where I wanted to be, if I wanted to stay in Oregon or not. My top five choices Art Therapist, Wardrobe Director/ Personal Shopper (I REALLY WISH), Marketing Manager, Interior Designer, and Art Teacher.

I've got to decide what I really want to go for. A while ago I had finally decided that I wanted to be an Art Teacher but then everyone kept telling me it was impossible to find a job now days for an Art teacher, sad thing is when I did the research I'd be way more likely to get a job as an art teacher rather than a Wardrobe Director. Actually, there are more art teachers than any of the other jobs I want. Of course being an art teacher would make me the least amount of money out of all of those jobs, but honestly, $46,000~ a year really isn't that bad. I wish I was more competitive...Cause that's what really gets to me when I am looking for a career. If I was more competitive I'd probably be able to make it SOMEWHERE in the fashion world.
I'm just so scared and I know that there are people that are better than me. I guess I'll always be a problem. I wish there was a way I could work under someone. :[ But yes, those are my dreams. I always wanted to be a wardrobe director and be able to put outfits together for movies, T.V. shows or photo shoots. God, I wish. :[
I might just end up as an art Teacher. Looking at what I really want to be, kinda sad. :p
Anyways, Check out my look book! If you have one you should fan me. :] Trying to get myself more out there.

Anyways, I've got to try and motivate myself to go take pictures today. It's cold and Slightly rainy out...I don't want to go downtown, but, that's kinda where I want to go to take pictures. :[ Maybe I'll find some company to go with me.

Have a great day! :D

Feb. 7th, A Small Rant.

For some time when I was a bit younger, I may have been considered whorish, slutty, easy or whatever. I admit I would get to know people and want to be with them, I love the excitement of what's unknown about someone. The way their hand grazes your waist, the way they kiss, the way they act when they first wake up. I love it, it's all so interesting. But I remember back then there were a lot of people that called me a tease, and not in a joking, sensual, funny way. No, they said it in a mean, I'm mad at you because you wont have sex with me Kind of way. Back then that would upset me, I felt like a bad person because I was "Leading" people on even though I didn't want anything more than that. I realize now that it shouldn't fucking matter if you fool around with someone but don't have sex with them. Sex is something special that you should only give to those you care deeply about, or if you both know it's just for fun. Those people were rude and mean and just upset that they couldn't have me that way. And now, I look back and I'm glad I never let them get to me so bad that I actually did have sex with them. I look back and realize, I'm glad I'm a tease, because at least I'm not a whore or easy. Which is what they would have said if I had had sex with them.

That's just a little rant I had to get out. ><
Goodnight. <3

Febuary Fourth.

Attempting to still do this, so far not much of a response.
In any case it seems like I'm just using for attempting to win Giveaways! Woot.
First off I might as well share my new look on Lookbook.

Well....I guess I haven't been doing much. This weekend has been amazing though. And it's not over. I started my weekend on Thursday. It has been rather exciting. Man. I don't have anything to say. :/
Resort to pictures.

This was Thursday Night

And this was last night! (Friday night)


It's been a rather fun couple days. It's gorgeous outside, I'm hopefully getting sushi today. :D Awesome!

Trying Something New.

Hey Guys, I'm at the point where I feel like this blog is very useless. I'm just talking to myself over here. >> I might get rid of it soon if it keeps feeling like this. But until then, I am going to try a bit harder to actually write something worth reading? Sometimes that is a rather hard idea to do though. :p

In any case, recently some friends of mine have shared the site Lookbook with me. It's a site dedicated to posting your outfits on the internet. I admit, most of people on this site have better outfits than me, but I'm going to go ahead and try it out anyways. I love fashion and even if I don't have the money and means to get the new style of fashion all the time doesn't mean I don't look good. ;D So go head and check me out!

I'm going to try and be more dedicated to doing this. Also, recently I went and talked to a Career Counselor at my college (to help me figure out what I want to do with my life) and yesterday was our first meeting. We talked about what kind of things I was interested in and talked about a few things that I might want to research more into. Talked about if I want to stay in Oregon or where else I might look into. Originally I wanted to stay in Oregon, more specifically Portland, Oregon. I love this place, it has always been my home and It's full of amazing, open minded people. (Not completely of course there are quite a few close minded people as well.)But during my talk with this Counselor I realized that I just love fashion so much, I really want to do something involved with it. However, It's hard to find a job in Oregon at all involving fashion, so if that's the case I might just go somewhere new, try and branch out from what I've grown so accustomed too.
In any case, I hope to hear from one of you guys. :]
And don't forget to check out my Lookbook!

Been awhile hu?

Sorry I have not been posting, (not that anyone reads this. ;p) but I've had too much in my head lately and Blogger isn't exactly where I'd like to put it. Let's see, let's see. I've added quite a few poems to my other blog, HERE! If anyone would like to check it out and leave some comments. Winter term has also started and I haven't been doing that great so far. D: I'm only taking two classes! Digital photography and Math 65. It's highly annoying to take a photo class during winter. Every single time I try to go take pictures it's raining! I finally just sucked it up to go take pictures for a project today and when I finally got to the park I realized my camera was dead! How depressing. D: As for math, well, I just suck at math. Pretty self explanatory. :P
Hey! I also dyed my hair pink!

There is pink me in the snow!

That's all there really is to say for now, Just trying to get by day to day. :]

I was Happy,
Until you Opened my eyes.

Since no one says anything, this is like a diary.

Do you ever think that sometimes you're not meant to be in a relationship with anyone? I'm sure it's crossed some peoples minds before. But, the reason I think this sometimes is not for the idea that people don't like me and I'm not destined to find a lover. It is more like, I tend to find a lot of people that like me. I'm not trying to sound conceded either. Most of my male friends have had feelings for me at one point or another. And a lot of the time I end up being interested in someone because I want to get to know them better, I want to make their life good, I want to help them learn that it's okay to open up and that it's okay for them to be who they are because they're amazing. This ends up being bad because that person I want to get to know ends up liking me. And If I like them and I'm single we might end up dating, then break up and they hate me but have grown. Or, I'm taken and then they like me then realize They don't get a chance so they hate me but have grown. I don't know...I'm too in my head lately. Trying to think about what's best for me at this point.